Lack, of, confidence.

This one post, is gonna be a long one. But it’s for everything that’s happened since my previous post. Actually not everything, but because some gay named Ernest that I failed to meet to pass him some stuffs for the past few days got pissed and says to me on the phone just now that I must fully explain to him why. And also, please remember to take a look at the good deals I have after the end of the post.
So here goes..

Stuffs that happened after my previous post:

Work at Orchard Hotel. WangTe spilt drinks onto a customer, placed his tray on the carpet, and then XiYi tripped over his tray and spilt all her drinks on the carpet. I laughed and got scolded. LOL. After work, was a mini celebration of MuJia’s birthday. We couldn’t decide where to go, what to do, and somehow ended up at Changi Airport, and even spent the night there. We alighted CityBus 36 at T1, took the sky train to T2, went hunting for a suitable cafe/restaurant to sit and eat at, and we did so at Polar. I bought her a slice of black forest which was decided by drawing of lots. And I bought myself.. err, a hotdog roll and a curry puff. After that we basically walked and sat around till 6AM when the city buses start operating, went to Tampines where she lives and then cabbed home.

I reached home at about, 7AM, bathed and all, then slept till 11AM. Headed down to work at Celio, which ended at 7PM. Then biased Lydia got me to look her and MuJia up at Takashimaya’s art friend, waited for Hong Wee, and we went to Cine’s food court to give MuJia a surprise celebration. Haha, got Hong Wee to buy his food and go back to his sit, while me and Lydia went up and bought two slices of cheese cake and the very last candle they had.
There are actually friends out there who uses the amount of oil left in a lighter to limit their friendship! Okay anyway, after the singing of birthday song, eating of cake, talking of crap and all, MuJia went home to get some stuffs, while me, Lydia and Hong Wee rented DVDs(Shrek 3 and Hannibal Rising) at Thomson Plaza for the stayover at Lydia’s house later on. For the night, there was Me, Hong Wee, Lydia, MuJia, JunJie, and JasonKoh. Watched Xiong Di, brought by JunJie and Jason, then watched Shrek3. I fell asleep while watching Shrek3, the rest fell asleep after watching Shrek3, except for MuJia who went to sleep the moment it started.
All of us woke up at about 11AM today, I came home to bathe and change and went back there. Watched Hannibal Rising, played some card games, blah. Then we all left for our work and stuffs.
I don’t have the pictures, maybe at Lydia’s blog.

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(MASSIVE) 1GB DDR2 533 Mhz\677 memory
Intel Extreme Graphics 2 int. AGI ( up 64Mb*)
80GB Harddisk Drive 7200rpm SATA2
DVD RW + (DUal layer)
7.1ch AC’97 Audio sound int.
10/100 Ethernet POrt
6* USB2.0 port (2xfront 4x Rear)
P4 ATX Tower Casing w/ Smart Power Supply
PS/2 Keyboard, optical mouse & speakers
19inch LCD monitor

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Intel Core 2 Duo E4400 2.0Ghz = $890
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OR
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Intel Core 2 Duo E6320 1.86Ghz = $964
Intel Core 2 Duo E6400 2.13Ghz = $1094
Intel Core 2 Duo E6600 2.4Ghz = $1122

4 posts, in 2 days.

This is what I think about myself, or rather, what I have to say about myself:

1. Emotionally, I am VERY, VERY, sensitive. You hardly get to see my breakdown because I control my emotions well. Even if I do breakdown, I’d hardly let anyone see.
2. I control my emotions well, I control my anger well.
3. I get pissed off very easily as well, but then again, I can keep everything in well.
4. I am capable of keeping things to myself so much so that I think I am overdoing it, I really need to see a counsellor/psychologist because their title reduces my reluctance to spill everything out.
5. There are some people I know that I can share my problems with.
6. There are some people that I WANT to know my problems, but I can’t seem to let them know.
7. I am easily distracted by my thoughts.
8. I can think so hard it takes someone shouting right into my ears to get my attention.
9. I am very sentimental. And I mean, very. Never mind, make that extremely.
10. I can endure “longer than I can” when I am determined(Usually when something of mine is at stake).
11. I fall in love easily. I am VERY vulnerable to limerence.
12. I love laughing.
13. For now,  I think I’m feeling very down.
14. I like to create, I like to design, I like to make.
15. I like to argue, I like to debate, I like to explain.
16. I like to analyze problems.
17. There are many stuffs I tell people to do, that I myself don’t know how to, YET.
18. I can’t bear to let go off my memories with close friends.
19. I like music.
20. I like to hear of people’s problems. I like to share people’s problems. I like to solve people’s problem for them. I like people to confide in me. I wanna be everybody’s confidant.

It’s 3AM. I’m not feeling very happy. I’m feeling very… This isn’t a good feeling for all I care.

40% discount

First day working at Celio today. It’s a really good job man. Very relaxed. Every hour, only about 2 customers, or groups of them, come in. Probably because of the “rich” location and killer costs of their products. All Celio staffs get a 40% discount on each purchase of their product.

I ended work at 4:30PM, I changed plans for the day many times today. Initially I wanted to meet QuinFei, then Jason called and asked to meet, then Shawn, then Lydia too. But I never met any of them. I ended up meeting up with ChunYu, hanged around FarEast waiting for Charles, in which we failed to patiently, and so we met KianWei to find the rest for dinner. I didn’t eat though. We chatted for quite some time before leaving. There was Ian, Desmond, Cheng Feng, JianYou, Me, KianWei, ChunYu, Charles, YongWei, and DeSheng. Beside Charles and ChunYu, who headed off to hunt for clothes after that, the rest headed home, and I went for supper with an asshole. Eheheh.

There’s no point voicing out to people who can’t help. Doing so will only irritate others. If you have the guts, voice out to people who have the power to change whatever you’re unhappy with. If you never like doing something, but if you don’t do that something, someone else who can control you would be unhappy. If you care about that person’s happiness, it means  you are willing to do that something, otherwise, voice it out to him or her.

Excuse me sir, may I get you a new cup of drink?

Yesterday, I was serving drinks. Today, I served drinks again. I wasn’t appointed to any specific table(s), and so for today, the dumb managers made me run all over the place doing things for them. If not for the good pay and flexible working hours, I wouldn’t even think about working as a waiter. I promised to work for about two weeks or a month, but today, Celio called me up saying that I’m hired and that I can go for their training next week! They pay 50cents less on weekdays, but working there is a thousand times more relaxing than working as a waiter at Orchard Hotel!

I’ve e-mails saying that my entries aren’t as “enthusiastic” as before nowadays.. Yeah I think so too, it’s probably because I’ve been busy this days, give me some time and I will bring back that enthusiasm :D

Actually it’s also partly because I’ve covered many topics and I don’t know what else to “explain” to people.

Hello WordPress.

Why WordPress?

Because it sounds nicer to me, it includes more features, more freedom.LiveJournal doesn’t allow editing of layout personally, unless money is paid, I don’t have to use an external statistics recorder with WordPress, I can easily categorise my entries, and so on. It is now 2:32AM, and it will be 3AM soon.

3AM, by Busted:

I don’t give a damn about you
No, nothing can change my mind
No way
I’m happy just to let you walk away

Don’t think about you at night
I’m happy to be alone
It’s ok
But that was yesterday, and now I’m

Driving in my car
Words don’t get me far
When they don’t mean shit
Ooooooh!

I’m calling you at 3 AM and I’m,
I’m standing here right outside your door
And I don’t think that my heart can take much more
I’m scared of cracking up again, I just
Want it to be like it was before
And I don’t think that my heart can take more

I don’t give a damn what you do
I’m going to get with you
Again
And that’s the way this night is gonna end
You say that you need some time
How long does it take to see
That we are more than meant to be?
And now you’re driving in your car
But you won’t get far
‘Cause your car is shit
Ooooooh!

I’m calling you at 3 AM and I’m
Standing here right outside your door
And I don’t think that my heart can take much more
I’m scared of cracking up again, I just
Want it to be like it was before
‘Cause I don’t think that my heart can take much more

Can take much more

Driving in my car
Words don’t get me far
When they don’t mean shit
Ooooooh!

I’m calling you at 3 AM and I’m
Standing here right outside your door
And I don’t think that my heart can take much more
I’m scared of cracking up again, I just
Want it to be like it was before
‘Cause I don’t think that my heart can take much more