Losing Me.

What’s your life like in the past?
What’s your life like now?
What will your life be like, in the future?

Who did you always hang out with in the past?
Who do you always hang out with now?
Who will you always hang out with, in the future?

Who did you love in the past?
Who do you love now?
Who will you love, in the future?

Who do you know loved you in the past?
Who do you know loves you now?
Who do you know will love you, in the future?

Who did you hate in the past?
Who do you hate now?
Who will you hate, in the future?

Who do you know hated you in the past?
Who do you know hates you now?
Who do you know will hate you, in the future?

Who did you trust in the past?
Who do you trust now?
Who will you trust, in the future?

Who do you know trusted you in the past?
Who do you know trusts you now?
Who do you know will trust you, in the future?

Who were you always there for in the past?
Who are you always there for now?
Who will you always be there for, in the future?

What were your favourites(hobbies; food, game, sport, songs, etc.) in the past?
What are you favourites now?
What will your favourites be, in the future?

What time did you usually sleep at in the past?
What time do you usually sleep at now?
What time will you usually sleep at, in the future?

What was your health like in the past?
What is your health like now?
What will your health be like, in the future?

What was your occupation in the past?
What is your occupation now?
What will your occupation be, in the future?

How active were you in the past?
How active are you now?
How active will you be, in the future?

How much commitments did you have in the past?
How much commitments do you have now?
How much commitments will you have, in the future?

How much did you spend in the past?
How much do you spend now?
How much will you spend, in the future?

How much were you earning in the past?
How much are you earning now?
How much will you be earning, in the future?

Did you take drugs(includes tobacco & nicotine) in the past?
Do you take drugs now?
Will you take drugs, in the future?

Did you know where you stood in the society in the past?
Do you know where you stand in the society now?
Will you know where you stand in the society, in the future?

Did you know how liked you are in the past?
Do you know how liked you are now?
Will you know how liked you will be, in the future?

Did you know what kind of a person you were?
Do you know what kind of a person you are now?
Will you know what kind of a person you are, in the future?

There’s so much more to think about.

Thank You, but..

Spent the night out.
Not exactly out, I was indoor, just not at home.
Came home about 2 hours ago.
Ate, studied a lil, and still studying now.

People you most and least expect to be there for you when you’re in adversity..
..My apologies, though.

Opportunity.

“The surprising thing about young fools is how many survive to become old fools.” – Doug Larson

O’s, O’s, O’s.
Like climbing over the Great Wall of China by using only the mind.
Education…

It’s ambivalence. You’re afraid to move on, because you’re afraid if you do, you’d do it when you were actually about to see the opportunity to get what you actually wanted.

Listen.

It’s the way we do things that decides who we will be, and what we will get.
It’s NOT the things we do that decides who we will be, and what we will get.

If you rob a bank like a professional, you will be someone with a lot of money.
If you run a business like a professional, you will be someone with a lot of money.
We do things like a professional, to be successful people and get what we want.
We can all do the same thing(robbing a bank), but some end up being rich, and some end up being imprisoned.

Things go my way.

Need A Job.

Read the title.
For the long holidays.

Metaphysics.

I’ve been reading up on metaphysics.

“Metaphysics is the branch of philosophy investigating principles of reality transcending those of any particular science.” – Wikipedia

Y’all should. ;I

I completed my examination paper in an hour and a half.
I feel like I’ve to start saving $150 now.
Just came back from supper with Kian Wei and Zhen Hui.
I’m tired and I don’t feel like sleeping and I’m bored.
I’ve this sudden urge to.. Fly? Yeah, fly, but how?!

Like the Law of Attraction,
“Substance takes and holds the form of Thought.
Thinking substance takes the form of its thought, moves according to the thought, and maintains itself in the form of that thought. After all, we cannot make a thing until we have thought that thing.”

Free, easy.

Seek To Replace.

School’s super boring today.
Only half the class turned up.
Celebrated Ms Winnie Leong’s birthday.
Slept through almost every lesson.
Did Math with Babu after school.
Came home and slept till about 1900.
Studying right after I’m done with this.

You know, when choices, determinations, promises, commitments, and stuffs like that are made, and is unfair towards you, neglecting your efforts, your perseverance, your abilities, you as a person. That’s when you seek justice by seeking other people and things that don’t do the same.

I Haven’t Been.

Woke up at 0645, thought I’d be late for school but wasn’t.
Didn’t get back any results today.
School’s all about going through preliminary papers and revision now.
The upcoming examination’s aura is getting stronger.

KFC after school with Joseph, Dixon and Ming Quan.
Had a long and interesting chat again.
More or less a “what will happen in time to come” conversation.

Like I’ve been a fool.

“You’ve got your phenomenon on one hand. Concrete and knowable. On the other hand you’ve got the incomprehensible. You call it God, but to me, God or no, it remains just that, the unknowable.” – Robin Green and Mitchell Burgess, 1994.

It simply means, we use the three letters “g, o and d” as an excuse whenever we can’t explain someone, something, or a happening.

Seek Reasons.

Got back a few papers today, results aren’t very fantastic, but satisfactory, except for some.
Unhappy with prejudiced people man.
It’s 2300 now.
I slept for.. about 5 solid hours since I got home late this afternoon.
Doubt it’s possible, or rather, I don’t plan to sleep later on already.
Have lots of mental work to do.

Just keep climbing, hoping things would change.
If actions have consequences, and I’m responsible for my own actions, then tell me what did I do to deserve the consequences I’m facing.

Crisis Intervention.

I scribbled through both my science papers.
Had biology tuition today till about 1300 and headed home.
Forcing myself to head home and do work almost everyday now sucks man, I could be out there having fun, but… Examinations.
I have one less subject to depend on compared to my classmates; mother tongue.
Mother tongue is one subject I would never dare to depend on, unless only tested orally.
With only 6 subjects, and the fact that the passing of a language and 4 other relevant subject is required to enter a polytechnic, means that I have to pass all my other 5 subjects, where passing all other 5 only means admission into a polytechnic. Admission into my desired course requires me to make sure my 5 subjects produce grades good enough.

“Don’t flatter yourself that friendship authorizes you to say disagreeable things to your intimates. The nearer you come into relation with a person, the more necessary do tact and courtesy become. Except in cases of necessity, which are rare, leave your friend to learn unpleasant things from his enemies; they are ready enough to tell them.” – Oliver Wendell Holmes (1809 – 1894)

What makes you think you know more about your friend than your friend’s enemies?
Surely, enemies know something bad about each other, hence becoming enemies, right?
If so, do you know why your friend’s enemy hates him? Do you think you would still be able to accept your friend for who he is, if you were to find out why his enemies can’t accept him?

“I always like to know everything about my new friends, and nothing about my old ones.” -Oscar Wilde (1854 – 1900)

Me too, I don’t know how many of you do, and how dumb you all think this is, but, I research as far as possible on every single person who befriends me. Be it, looking up their friendster & facebook profiles, entering their names, e-mails and phone numbers in search engines, reading their weblogs if they let me know about it, or if I find it myself, and asking around about them. It’s not a pervertic act, it’s not because I’m too free, it’s not because I’m paranoid, it’s because this way, I’ve found out so much about my friends, and more than just my friends. I even dug out stuffs about my friends’ friends, my schoolmates, my neighbours, or rather, strangers. You never know, one day you might enter your friend’s name into a search engine and find it in a hospital’s records of “successful sex reassignment surgery” patients.
Don’t hesitate, just find out all you can about the people around you.
Make use of their enemies. Make use of the internet. Make use of your observation(observe their behaviour and speech, they tell a lot)
It’ll help a lot.

Should never have believed.