Freedom of Choice

We all make choices. We all have choices. We give ourselves choices.
We think that choices are given to us, but the fact is, choices is given to us, by ourselves.
Choices, by others, by ourselves.
We choose to love, we choose to hate.
We choose to succeed, we choose to give up and fail.
We choose to bother, we choose to ignore.
We choose to kiss, we choose to hit.
We choose to think, we choose to assume.
We choose to choose, we choose to let others choose for us(and make them responsible).
We choose, everything, all by ourselves.
Everything that goes on in our lives now, are outcomes of our choices.
Even if you missed your wedding because your friend got knocked down by a car, even though it doesn’t sound that, bad, still, it’s a choice made by oneself.

I have problem with my patience. I’m not impatient. I’m too patient. The pool was so reflective and calm like a big sheet of glass in the middle of the night it made me think, it provided decisions, it provided solutions, it provided peace in the mind, though it aroused more thoughts. For approximately 16 years, my pool’s probably been the thing I vent practically everything on, or in, from sadness, to anger, to happiness.

I’m Still in Qualm.

I ain’t posting about much this few days.
Maybe, I have too much to post about.
Maybe, I, don’t know.
I thought I’d resort to lyric posting.
Meaning posting up songs’ lyric to represent my day or my thoughts.
Not the entire lyric though. That’d be too long.

Blindfolded.

If it’s attention that you want then I can give you closure.
Baby close your eyes so I can show ya.
I need you on my team, baby won’t you let me coach ya.
Put you on some things that you never, cause it’s wise, clever.
You should already know you should be with me.
And if you would just go, then only you would see, blindfolded.
Baby there’s no need to be naive, blindfolded.
It’s so sad to see that you can’t see what’s going on.
Girl I can carry you, this time you’re on your own but,
What I could do for you, you won’t be all alone.
Now baby stop second guessing it, you’ve got a winner ain’t no stressing it.
Girl you should know.
Open up your eyes and realize that you deserve better.
I got what you need, read between the lines girl you know what I mean.
Already through but girl you know it’s a go now
If you want it, come get it.
You know it’s f’sho.
I know you’re hurting girl, but I’m not hating.
Just say the truth, you might as well face it.

How do we weigh people’s value?
Their capability?
Their wealth?
Their loyalty, faith, and trustworthiness?
Their mental and physical strength?
Their knowledge?
Their love?
Their care and concern?
Tell me.

Apologize, on the piano, I play. Finally.

Secondhand Serenade.

Great, I have Friday, yesterday, and today to post about.
Tomorrow, I’ll have tomorrow.
Design & Technology’s hammering me now.

Fall For You
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I’d never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Oh

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I’m yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Happy Birthday HweeChang.

This is the first time I’m doing a scheduled post. ;I
By the time you all this, I’d probably be out somewhere.
Good bye.

My apologies.

I’m Free.

Besides family members.
Right now, if you can only say “I love you” to one person.
Who would it be?

F, I always forget about what I want to post about whenever I look at my screen.
Went to the gym till 1945. Got a ride home on Ian’s cab.
I’m dreading tomorrow.
Lessons supposingly ends at 1250, but remedial lasts till 1700.

Cure me.

Love Never Stops.

Do you all ever realize that it’s quite impossible to stop loving someone?
Regardless of whether you hate or have forgotten about em, you still love em.
We see someone, we get to know em.
We interact, we fall in love.
We love, for a reason, or reasons. Usually external reasons, like his/her care and concern for you.
And once we start loving, we don’t think about stopping.
Until we see no more reasons to do so.
We only think about stopping when the reasons are gone, we don’t actually do it.
In the process of falling love, we see more reasons. And this time, it’s internal, and not external, meaning his/her character and personality.
How often do we forget the process of falling in love?
We lose contact, we lose knowledge of each others whereabouts.
We forget each other.
When one day we finally meet again, and recognise each other, the love is still there. I don’t know how to prove this, but, you all know it.

Is patience really the key to success?

I’m a Wonder.

I reached home at 0900.
I slept till 1510.
I’ve been on the computer since.
I still have math to do.
I’ve my O level orals tomorrow.

It’s been a long way since.

In This World. No Victims, Only Volunteers.

Why must conflicts always be seen as bad?
Why do you not like conflicts?
Do you have any idea how much a conflict teaches you about yourself?
Do you have any idea what about yourself can you learn from conflicts?
Do you resolve or manage conflicts?
Do you aim to be the winner, or do you want a win-win outcome in a conflict?
Conflict is when one does not accept what one sees.
Conflicts are situations whereby all involved parties try their best to be the victim.
Conflicts are situations whereby all involved parties challenge to see who gets most sympathy.
Conflicts are situations whereby all involved parties volunteer to be victims.
Conflicts are situations whereby all involved parties think that being victims would make them the victor.
Why not be the victor without even being the victim?
Conflicts are situations whereby all involved parties want each other to apologize for being wrong.
Conflicts are situations whereby some involved parties just say sorry to get it over and done with.
They apologize, for nothing. They don’t know why they apologize.
If I ask you, for the past 20 times you said “sorry,” out of all 20, for how many times do you know why you said it?
Are you able to tell me why you said sorry, how would it help, how are you going to make sure the same thing won’t happen, , why should the other party forgive you, how would the other party feel better, and how did it make you feel better?
Conflicts are situations whereby at least one mediator usually comes in.
Mediators encourages parties to look for answers where all parties gets what they want and need.
Mediators are not biased.
Mediators have no prejudice.
Mediators have no preassumptions of the conflict.
Mediators have no preconceptions of the conflict.
One big problem with school is that, besides the counsellor and experienced or trained personnels, the teachers are really faulty mediators. Not to mention, the students who think they can and try mediate conflicts well by themselves.

I’ve come to a point in whereby salt no longer hurt my wounds. I’ve come to a point whereby my heart has become elastic.

Self-awareness. Don’t wait for someone to tell you what you don’t know about yourself, lest you get shocked and burst into conflict within yourself.

Conflict

Has anyone ever told you to draw a person, a tree, and a house, and says that the drawing can be interpreted to explain you? It’s called the person-tree-house drawing test. I’ve learnt how to interpret it today. Not how majority always does, but, in detail and with explanations. Quite a sense of achievement.

Conflict. Communication.
In conflicts, in arguments, all that we hear, all that we listen to.
“I did not say that.”
“I said that.”
“I know.”
“I swear.”
“I am.”
“I need.”
“I don’t like.”
Sometimes, we hear it all in one sentence.
And when we do, sometimes, we choose to argue similarly.
We just add “but” in front of every quote above. It’s the wrong decision made.
Look at all the quotes. The one thing in common is, “I,” which also means “me.”
Where’s “you,” “we,” “us,” “all?”
People tend to make the conflict sound like they(I) are the one and only victim.
Somehow, victims usually don’t solve the problem, hence, they are the problem, or at least part of it.
Then, what’s so good about making yourself sound like the victim? For attention and sympathy? Why not be the victor?
If we don’t start to choose, we stand to lose.
If we don’t choose to be the victor, we choose to be the victim.
There ain’t no in-between.

Do They Push Or Pull?

Came back not long ago from Bishan Gym.
School was boring today. Maybe not that bad after school.
Waited for Arthur and Ian to be released from detention class and headed to the gym.
Stopped working out at about 1915 and we raced each other in sprinting along the stretch behind Bishan Stadium’s sports hall.
Headed home then after.

Friends, are people we’re on good terms with.
Friends, are people who encourage us.
Friends, are people who support us.
Friends, are people who trust us and vice versa.
Friends, are people who give truthful comments.
Friends, are people who comment to improve us.
Friends, are people who don’t comment to spite us.
Friends, are people who teach you.
Friends, are people who help you learn better.
Friends, are people who don’t leave you out.
Friends, are people who push us forward in life.
Friends, are people who don’t pull us back in life.

Look around you, look at your friends.
Do they match the above?
It’s fine if they laugh at your failures, but, do they help you after they laugh?
It’s fine if they jeer at your mistakes, but, do they improve you after they jeer?
It’s fine if they see you humiliated by others, but, do they bring you back on your feet?

I need.