ShuLing messaged me this morning, and her reply after mine was, “Wah why so fierce?”
Then at home, before meeting KianWei at the bus stop to school, I looked through every single sent message in my phones, messages since November of last year. I realize that when I’m not fully conscious, like when I wake up because of a phone call or text message, what I say or what I type in a text message can be quite scary. I won’t give examples of stuffs I say when I’m half conscious. ;I But as for stuffs I type in a message…
When conscious: “Ah, never mind, it doesn’t really matter anyway. ;I”
When half conscious: “Forget it.”
When conscious: “Don’t know? Then how? Hurry decide leh.”
When half conscious: “Yes or no?”
When conscious: “I’ve stuffs to say to you. Just come out. ;I”
When half conscious: “I wanna meet.”
Maybe I shouldn’t say scary, I should just say, straightforward. I say scary because I actually don’t remember sending all those messages? :S
School ended at 2:10PM, we watched the singing competition’s competition till 4, went to Terence’s house and play ball till 6, and then, home. That’s today.
No, I haven’t gave up. I’m just really, really lost.
I can’t dream yet another dream without you lying next to me in my arms.
Opportunities.
